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Absence by MissMonkeyMam Absence :iconmissmonkeymam:MissMonkeyMam 7 4
Darkness within Light
...It's cold...
...So cold...
...I can feel it crawling...
...And seeping through my body...
...I used to be afraid of the dark...
...It hides so much...
...Especially what we fear...
...And we fear what we don't know...
...And can't see...
...The monsters and beasts hide and thrive off of this darkness...
...I can only remember this darkness...
...And the cold that resides within...
...Does this make me a monster...
...No matter what it makes me...
...It will never change the creature that I am...
...No one could ever look upon me with eyes of kindness...
...I am faced with the piercing glare of disgust and hatred...
...Always armed and ready to strike...
...The fear of the unknown...
...Reflecting in those eyes...
...In the darkness...
...Those eyes can't find me...
...The cold numbs the pain...
...Those eyes have caused...
...Forever I may be alone...
...Longing for the light...
...And the warmth...
...That could erase my pain...
...But that will never be...
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Saskia Madding Quote by MissMonkeyMam Saskia Madding Quote :iconmissmonkeymam:MissMonkeyMam 23 11 Asking-Begging-Pleading +Twice by MissMonkeyMam Asking-Begging-Pleading +Twice :iconmissmonkeymam:MissMonkeyMam 3 5 Asking-Begging-Pleading +Once by MissMonkeyMam Asking-Begging-Pleading +Once :iconmissmonkeymam:MissMonkeyMam 3 3 Paint Me A Picture by MissMonkeyMam Paint Me A Picture :iconmissmonkeymam:MissMonkeyMam 3 7 -Gift-Hospital Stamp by MissMonkeyMam -Gift-Hospital Stamp :iconmissmonkeymam:MissMonkeyMam 74 9 Rainbow Stamp by MissMonkeyMam Rainbow Stamp :iconmissmonkeymam:MissMonkeyMam 59 36 Otto Waving by MissMonkeyMam Otto Waving :iconmissmonkeymam:MissMonkeyMam 4 13 Dark Tendrils by MissMonkeyMam Dark Tendrils :iconmissmonkeymam:MissMonkeyMam 5 17
.:Painful Reality:.
A lie from the start,
but true in the end.
Simply suffering,
from hope I pretend.
a curse for many.
Stretching solid truth,
with groans a plenty.
Contradictions burn,
singeing faith and trust.
Crushed in an instant,
but live on we must.
Keep burning bridges,
see how far you’ll get.
Only then you’ll know,
how much you regret.
Who will you turn to,
when it all goes wrong.
No one’s there for you,
you’ve known all along.
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.:My Broken Heart Sings:.
You want to escape,
lie to everyone.
Avoidance can’t erase,
the damage is done.
You say you’re sorry,
and you need to change.
I don’t believe it,
you can’t rearrange.
This isn’t the first,
it’s happened before.
Do you really think,
I want anymore?
Don’t apologize,
to change what occurred.
Actions speak louder,
your words are absurd.
You don’t understand,
why I am this way.
Look at what happened,
and the price you pay.
You think it’s not fair,
you want one more chance.
I won’t trust again,
to let pain enhance.
You wish to go back,
and try to change things.
It would be the same,
my broken heart sings.
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.:The War:.
Something I go through,
with each step I take.
Disrupting my thoughts,
with so much at stake.
Simple decisions,
turn into a war.
Heart and mind collide,
leaving my soul sore.
My heart might say yes,
my head will say no.
Stuck in the middle,
wandering death row.
Whispers from the heart,
portray who I am.
But where is the truth,
to this heart felt scam.
The mind may be quick,
though not always right.
But my common sense,
will put up a fight.
I’ll try to listen,
and learn what to do.
I need to choose one,
before I fall through.
Once I do decide,
my choice has been made.
But doubt clouds my eyes,
my thoughts start to fade.
Questioning myself,
believing I’m wrong.
Back where I started,
the war starts up strong.
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.:Optimistically Pessimistic:.
Count your Blessings child, things could be much worse.
I dwell on the wrong, making life a curse.
Practice makes perfect, keep on trying again.
Only to be crushed, so I won’t begin.
Believe in yourself, accept what you are.
Trapped inside my lies, I am lost by far.
Trust in your instincts, they know the way out.
My instincts are gone, washed away by doubt.
Listen to your heart, when all else has failed.
But the silence screams, the beat is derailed.
Don’t lock things within, release what’s inside.
Thoughts safe in my mind, forever I’ll hide.
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I.T. Round 1: Sireen VS. Delta
Sireen woke with a start and looked around anxiously. She rubbed her eyes and looked around herself once more. She didn’t recognize anything in this, strange, unfamiliar room. An eerie feeling crept slowly through her body, leaving her hands sweaty, and her toes chilled. Her heart raced as panic began to flood her mind. She closed her eyes and hugged her knees to her chest, trying to calm down and remember what had happened the day before. “That’s right,” She whispered as she slowly opened her eyes. “I’m a contestant in a tournament.”
Taking one more look at her surroundings with a slightly calmed mind, she found things that she recognized, mostly. The room was bathed in a cool gray early morning light. In the far corner stood an elegant looking bookshelf, filled with books of a wide variety of sizes and shapes. On the opposite wall were two doors. One was rather large, and the other a bit smaller, but nonetheless, it was still a door. There was a win
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Immortal Tournament Bio Sheet
Name of OC: Sireen
Sex: Female
Age: 15
Race: Jungle Imp of the Land Tribe
Brief Bio: Sireen is rather small for her age. Like most of her people, she has light brown hair and dark brown eyes. Since she is a Jungle Imp, her characteristics take after those of a monkey, but she looks completely human. She is very agile and limber, but not very strong. She uses a flexible wooden staff as a weapon, but mostly she uses her surroundings and agility to her advantage.
Personality Description: Sireen can be rather clever at times, but a little reckless and daring. Because of this, she tends to get in trouble. She used to trust people very easily, but got hurt both physically and mental from trusting the wrong kind of person, and is very wary of trusting anyone again. Still, Sireen will try and do whatever she can if someone is in trouble or needs help. She doesn’t want anyone else to go through what she went through, ever.
Background: Sireen is from a distant planet were the inhabitants th
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The Past and Future p.6
At morning I went with Sunny to the control room. I hoped that Sprx is there, that he comed here... I was just dreaming. He wasn’t there. “Have anybody of you plan for today?” asked Chiro, wenting with Jinmay to the room. “No, if you wouldn’t want to play new video game what I downloaded.” Said Otto, blinking at Chiro. “Downloading games, music and movies are pirating, Otto. You shouldn’t do it anymore.” Said Gibson. “And why? What would happen?” “You can take to the prison of it.” Said Gibson. Otto gasped. He had that pure smile, trying to make Gibson forgot that he downloaded it. I was giggling at them both. “Just don’t do it again.” Said Gibson, chuckling, like Otto would think Gibson will take him to prison. “Well, when nobody of you have plans, we can go to the round of Galaxy Cup today.” Said Chiro with exciting voice. “Who knows, maybe Sprx couldn’t come here, I
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The Past and Future p.5
It was already night. Sunny was sleeping in my arms. Looking at her made me chuckle. I kisses her gently on forehead, and she rubed to me. I know that I still love Sprx and I miss him, but if he don’t love me anymore, at least I have this my little angel...
Later pilot of ship told me, that we are just one mile away from Shugazoom. I looked from window to the planet. Still same... That beautiful city is still same. In moment Sunny woked up in my arms. “I’m sorry sweetie, I awoked you?” I was asking to Sunny, and she nodded with head like no. She was looking from window to the planet. Her eyes was sparkling once again. “It’s so beautiful...” I just smiled on her. “I knew you will like it, Sunny.”
When we light on, I taked Sunny to my arms, and to my hands I taked a lot of boxes. When ship leaved, I was a 2 miles of Shugazoom city. Somehow, I went there with milion boxes on my arms and with excited baby. I really didn
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The Past and Future p.4
“Thank you so much for everything, master,” I said, giving him thanks smile. He smiled at me, and he put hand on my arm. “You was one of best students, what I ever had. I don’t want to loose you, but I completely understand you, and I have to say that you was awesome.” He said, smiling. “Thanks, master.” I said, leaving training arena. If I won’t be back, I never will see this place again. Before I left I was yet once time looking deeply to arena. On this place was Sunny born. In hell. I am bad mother. First, what she could see was good people, beautiful natural and awesome unkles. The first what she saw was monsters, and fire around. I am not so sure if I will miss here something. I left arena.
When I was in front of house, I heard baby crying. I sighed. Sunny can’t be without me at least for some hours? I went to the house. When Sunny saw me, she was running to me, huging my legs. When I saw Felix’s anger face, I co
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The Past and Future p.3
God...I couldn’t believe that Sprx will be there...I was looking for moment at Sunny, which was still playing with that plane. Felix saw, that something wasn’t Ok. “Nova? What happened? Is something wrong?” “No, no, of course no,” I said, looking at Sunny. Felix did understand, and he didn’t asked me for that anymore.
When was evening, I went with Sunny and Felix to my house. I put Sunny to bed, and I was telling her story to good night. Like always, she wanted hear before sleeping stories about 6 heroes, which was protecting Shugazoom city. I never told her, that I belongted to them. Felix was in kitchen, making dinner for me. When I went to the kitchen, he just wanted know what is going on. “Nova? Can we talk now?” I set up to chair and sighed. “Yea…” Felix said by mi side, looking at me confused. I hold in my hands letter from Chiro and Jinmay. “What is it?”
”A letter from my…team.
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The Past and Future p.2
Nova waked up at 4.00 AM. She had to, she had to be at 5.30 AM already in training arena. She looked at Sunny, still deeply sleeping. She wasn’t going to wake her up. She just leaved room and she went to the kitchen. She was making breakfast. She was doing to herself waffles. She was surprised she did. “Sprx’s favourite breakfast..” said Nova, sighing and siting to the table.
On the moment she saw Sprx in front of her, with a little piece of waffles on his finger. He was going to put it to Nova’s mouth, but she closed eyes. She knew she was just dreaming. Sprx was, God know now where and everything they was doing each other was past.
After she clean up dial, she was taking her things to the training. She then heard Sunny waking up. “Mommy? Mommy! Sniff, sniff..” Sunny started cry not seeing her mum around. Nova was running to Sunny, taking her to arms. “Good morning sweetie, how was your dreams?” asked Nova with sweet, warm voice. “I am
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The Past and Future
Darkness. Pain. Sadness.
Three things in Nova’s mind. She can’t believe it is already so long long time since she saw Hyper Force last time.
Darkness she saw everywhere around her. Oh God, how much she missed Shugazoom, that beautiful city.
Sadness she felt of long time what she saw her friends last time. It was already 3 years, and she missed them so much as she wouldn’t see them 30 years.
Pain she felt in her heart. Her breaking heart. She wanted have another life. With someone she loves. With someone, who is sure now with another woman, making beautiful life.
Her thinking was always like this. She couldn’t stop thinking of Hyper Force. Not with everyone she was making contact. In the planet where she was, she didn’t have chaince to make contact with someone, but some members was making to her. Like Otto, Chiro and Jinmay.
Otto was doing good. He had his own service in planet with too much parts and materials, he was fixing to others broke things an
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.:Lady Marian Fitzwater:.
United States
Current Residence: State of Denial
Favourite genre of music: Alternative/Rock/Pop (curse you addictive pop music)
Operating System: Computer (tell me you seen that coming)
MP3 player of choice: I get to choose?!?
Favourite cartoon character: I have to pick one?!? Meany.
Personal Quote: Look with your eyes, not with your butt...

Still Alive

Journal Entry: Fri Sep 11, 2009, 10:31 PM
Yeah, I haven't been on DA in a LONG time.

Sorry to everyone for kind of falling off the edge of the world. ^^;

I have some excuses, but so what. I'll try and be more active. ^^

Peace :heart:




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EraValkyrie Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey! I have copied to my profile your SRMTHFG stamp if you dont mind :)
Isnt it a problem? :)

RhaedaLeeMire Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
Hi! Just thought I'd let you know I read your "Fear of Fire" fanfic a while ago before joining dA, and I really enjoyed it! ^_^
aldrichlim Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2009  Professional Photographer
:D thank you for the :+fav:
MissMonkeyMam Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2009
You're most welcome! ^^
PixarBaby2020 Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2009
OMG are you alive?o___o did you die and not tell me?!
MissMonkeyMam Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2009
No! I live! 8]
PixarBaby2020 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2009
thank goodness!!!o___o
MissMonkeyMam Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2009
But if I did die, I probably wouldn't be able to tell you... cause I'd be dead. lol
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PixarBaby2020 Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2009
Hi, havent talked to you in a while.^^ How are things?
PixarBaby2020 Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2009
congrats you've been tagged! see my journal for details! sorry for tagging you...
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